Unfamiliar Family

WARNING. a very negative post. Just me complaining.

I have stronger bond with the maternal side of my family. I can named everyone of them, what they do for living, their new family members (In-law, newborn) and which school/university they in right now. They are the one that help me a lot, encourage and also motivate me. Each of them have their very own problem and success, and they handle it quite good. My mama once told me that our neighbour (which also a friend with my uncle) said that my Opah (grandmother) have a very successful children. With them I can cry, laugh and hell I care a lot about them.

But thats not the case with my paternal side of family. I'm at my total opposite. I only knew their face. I've totally forget the order of my fathers sibling. When I see one of them, my mind just think "that is just my relatives." I just don't really care about them. To be honest, I'm quite furious about them, about what they did to my mama. I hear things and I couldn't stand it. From the point, they may see a perfect happy family. I can only see threat from them.

They always critised the action of our family specifically my mama. I grew up seeing a lot of thing and everytime my mama share some stories with me, I couldn't help myself from crying silently. Now I'm here in Germany and all I can say to my mother is "Just ignores those kind of people. Just do what you think the best." Recently my mom offer to treat a relatives (I called her Wan Putih) that babysat me and my siblings when we were little with an Umrah trip as token of gratitude. Wan Putih said that she really wants to go for an Umrah but most of her children are too busy to bring her, hence my mama invitation. And they said my mama is stingy when my mom said they can tag along if thwy want but they need to pay it themselves. Dude! My mom already payed for my family which is already 7 person plus my Opah and Wan Putih too. I was really angry when I heard the story. I really want to face them and say "Well if you guys have enough money to travel and shop in Vietnam and Beijing, then why the hesitation to spend money for Umrah??"

Growing up seeing all kind of ridiculous things my mama need to bear really make me a defensive person. Well... with a twisted mind too. I once a very hot-blooded person. Since now I have throw away those unhealthy habit, I didn't know where to channel my anger. I ended up bearing all my anger inside myself. I ended up being a secretive person. Writing all this down really lighten up the burden a bit. I literally crying when I write this plus makes my homesickness reached a new level. I even call home at 3 am and cry throughout the phone call.

So whoever read this, I'm so sorry about my bad post. I am right now in the middle of sleep-deprived stage due to exam depression and at my highest level of homesickness. Making thing worst, I'm tired throughout the day with uncontroll eating habit.
Sorry!

Travel Germany

I find a need to write a post about travelling in Germany since a lot of my friend have been asking about it. I guess this would ease my task of telling them everything for multiple times. I could just hand this link from my blog and ask them to read it. After that, the can ask me any question they want. Ahakz

I will be writing about main topic in budget travelling which is Transport, Accomodation, Food, Sightseeing and Souvenir.

To make everything easier I'll put a special Tab just for this particular topic.

Adios

Or should I make a video?

Bajet vlogger

Rant : 2014 To-do-list

2014.
Every year I do the whole New-Year-Resolution crap thingy. And every year I carry old resolution without any improvement. Shame on me. So this year I've decided to set things right. Improving myself.

1. Print and Paste my goal on the wall
I do this so that, everytime I wake up, I would see my goal for the first thing I open my eyes. By doing this, I have a daily reminder where I can reset my attitude every morning and I can recall what I have done to fulfill my goal

2. Save more money
I never thought I will be this kinda shopaholic. I have decided to divide my Money equally. 50% of my allowance are for my Responsibility (rent, bills), 30% for my saving account which I will deduct every first day of a month and 20% for misc. things such as groceries. I also started a €5-Saving. €5-Saving is that everytime I have €5-Note, I will never spent the money and put my €5 in a jar. So far, It has worked out pretty well.

3. Spent money on knowledge and experiences.
I once read that when people spend money by buying things, they ended up being greedy and the happiness is temporary. So, I've decided that every extra money I have, I would like to use it for travelling or new knowledge sich as Piano or Kendo. Looking forwards to those things!

So here is just some of my plan for 2014. You should start 5-Saving too! Wish me luck!

Sayur Kobis Goreng ala Mamak

Aku selalu ada masalah memikirkan lauk sayur apa yang boleh aku buat. Sayur goreng yang aku selalu masak adalah tersangat biasa dan membosankan. Masalah lauk sayur ni akan jadi sangat leceh bila memikirkan sayur apa yang sesuai dimakan dengan lauk apa.

Dan last time aku masak kari ayam. Semestinya soalan yang sama muncul : "Sayur apa yang sesuai makan dengan kari?". Memandangkan kari adalah masakan yang sinonim dengan orang india/mamak, aku dapat simpulkan yang sayur kobis yang dihidang kat kedai mamak adalah sesuai untuk dimakan bersama lauk kari (oh, skema!)

Bahan :
Kobis (obviously!)
Lobak merah
Bawang putih
Bawang besar
Cili padi
Serbuk kunyit (effect warna kuning yang kunyit je boleh bagi)
Optional : sayur lain dan ikan bilis

Cara2 :
1. Panaskan minyak
2. Masukkan dan gaul rata serbuk kunyit dalam minyak. Tak perlu tunggu minyak panas. Agak2 la kuantiti serbuk kunyit tu. Jangan banyak sangat sebab serbuk kunyit ni hanya untuk wujudkan appearance warna kuning kat sayur.
3. Tumis bawang putih, bawang besar dan cili padi yang dihiris sampai naik bau.
4. Masukkan semua kobis dan lobak merah serta segala bahan optional. Gaul rata biar sayur berwarna kuning.
5. Masak sampai semua sayur lembut (Tutup kuali lagi bagus) dan perasakan dengan garam.
6. Makan (or ambil gambar masuk social media dengan segala hashtag yang layak)

Last time aku masak lauk ni, tetamu yang menyinggah rumah aku siap tambah 4x (lelaki makan banyak) dan siap minta resepi. Malah diorang request aku masak lagi lauk ni untuk dinner esok harinya. Dan memandangkan tangan aku hari tu penuh nak masak benda lain, aku suruh diorang masak sambil aku tengok. Kira aku ajar la. Ayat mamat sorang ni memang buat aku happy sebab aku selalunya tak confident dengan masakan aku.

"Pastikan masak biar sama macam semalam"

0^◇^0)/ oh, stop it you!
kembang setaman

URL resepi ni kelakar sebab aku tersalah tajuk masa first time publish resepi ni

Rant : Early Marriage

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate 2 of my friends for their upcoming marriage and solemnization on February and March 2014. May both of you and your partners lived together till Jannah and may your families prosper with plenty of offsprings. *^O^*

Now I have four friends whose already married with their significant other. I can't wait for their babies to be born later. Everytime I posted some photos of my friends' weddings, people throw me each time the same question : When is your turn?. And I give my only answer : When Allah permits.

My family doesn't really embrace this whole early marriage thing. My mom get married at her late 20s. So do my aunts. My cousins get married in their middle 20s. I don't see myself breaking that tradition either. But who knows. Our fate lie at Allah. Allah hold the greatest and the best Plan for each of us.

I might surprised my mother if I start to talk about my own marriage. I remembered how she constantly talked about don't get married during study when I told her that I went to a friend's wedding. Although my youngest brother sometimes mention about when will his sisters get marry because he want to play with baby. (No more sibling for him). But she sometimes mention about how will she plan "someone" wedding.

"If someone get marry, I want to do the ceremony at the community hall down the street"

I guess that "someone" could either be me or my younger sister who now studying in Jordan. I doesn't reject the idea of my younger sister to get marry first instead of me because it is not impossible. The early marriage rate among malaysian student in Egypt and Jordon is quite high. Safety and Cultural aspect in both place can be the influential factors.

Marital talk is like drugs to us women. It can be both exciting and depressing. The excitement come from imagining what is our dream wedding. We become depress as we realized that the dream wedding will not turn into reality any sooner. According to Islam, a moderate a wedding is better. But this are the things that people nowdays take for granted. When it comes to wedding, we want a moderate ceremony, but we ourselves use iPhone and Prada Handbag. As for my opinion, we should live our life moderately, spending money on what we need not on what we want. For example, one already have a well-functioned smartphone suitable for work task. Instead he/she changed for a new one for an upgrade. That is my friend is what I called Wasting Money.

Marriage is not only a platform to avoid Zina. It is not about sex. Marriage is more than that. It is about maturity, responsible and other heavy thing that we often forget. It is a beautiful ceremony that celebrates love. Thats why I sometimes laugh when the newly-weds mention avoiding Zina as a reason for their early marriage. It makes me wonder : Does all youngsters nowdays only think about sex?

I hope that young people nowdays including me reset their opinion about early marriage and think deeply about it.

Rant : Memoirs

Au Revoir 2013, Wilkommen 2014
Alhamdulillah, Allah have given me an opportunity to live until today. As another year past, a lot of memories stay strongly in our heart.

Alhamdulillah again, as I had the chance to meet 2 of my primary school's friends. I met Hanis Hafizah in München and Farah Lina which spent 2 nights with her friends in Nürnberg.

We talked and recalled all those memories from primary school (SKS7 Kota Damansara). It made us realized how mischievous and naughty we were back then. I'm not really proud of what we did but that was just a stupid things we did as we try to cope in a new world.

1. We teased other girls that is not among our clique for various reason. (because of boys, clothes, games)

2. We once locked up a weak thin boy after school for one hour.

3. We fought with boys and girls for stupid reasons

4. We played pranks, distribute weird letter etc

I hope we can meet again!